23 Things I've Learned...

1. Everything in life happens for a reason ... 
2. Live in the MOMENT. 
3. Continue to push forward. As you continue pushing eventually everything will fall into place. Never give up..
4. first love is the sweetest ... but it surely cuts the deepest
5. it is important to never let success go to your head ... or failure to your heart
6. passion is not what you're good at ... it is what you enjoy the most :o)
7. Love is absolutely eternal. Even if you 'break up' with someone you love, you will still have a connection and love for them for ever.
8. God chooses what we go through. We choose how we go through it.
9. Always value who you are. Enjoy your uniqueness. Don't compare yourself with others and put yourself down. Be true to yourself.
10. The way to multiply the blessings in your life is to start giving praise for the blessings that u already HAVE! 
11. "In the end, everything will be ok. And if it's not ok, it's not the end."
12. Relationships are the number 1, by far, the most important part of life. Without relations with others, we would have nothing. Therefore, put those as your main priority in life. Everything else is secondary.
13. Realize who the real people in your life are and beware of who isn't... You might be surprised at the answer either way...
14. Never let others see you sweat. Be like a duck: calm on top, but paddling like hell underneath! 
15. When something is right for you, you will know.
16. Keep integrity::: You are who you are when no ones looking. 
17. When people show you who they are, believe them. 
18. The 5 people you spend the most amount of time with will determine how far you go in life
19. You can never be lonely if you love the person you're alone with. Learn to love yourself before you love others. 
20. “To have a good friend is one of the highest delights in life; to be a good friend is one of the noblest and most difficult undertakings.”
21. And it's the truth that everything you've always wanted will come to you the second you stop looking for it.
22. We are never satisfied with what we have. We want what we can't have and take the things we do have for granted.
23. The way you treat people is a direct reflection of how you feel about yourself.

intervention

I need an intervention.

Sean is coming home in less than three weeks and he will be home for the month of December. Note: I only know this because I am a MASTER facebook stalker. Regardless, since Halloween ... he has STOPPED calling me and texting me. All forms of communication have stopped. Funny thing is, this is exactly what I wanted almost a month ago. But it is amazing how constant phone calls, and uttered "I Love Yous" can make a girl go a little stir crazy when she no longer hears the words anymore. What's more is I am convinced that Sean is about to begin dating Rachel Story (a friend of his from college). She is ALWAYS writing on his wall which tells me he must be writing on hers.

Folks, we are coming up on three years that I have not been with this kid. I have made so much progress and come so far! Yet why do I seem to find myself still grieving and hanging on to something that is no longer mine? I can tell you verbally that I no longer love him and I realize that I deserve someone so much better than him. Yet, I sit here wishing, hoping and silently praying that maybe today will be the day that I get a phone call from him. Maybe today he will confess his love for me and make a change for the better. I will never understand our current relationship or why he keeps me stumped.

Ideally, I want to begin dating again. I am so bored with my love life right now. I want to go out on a date! I want to have options out there. I want to fall in love again. I want, I want, I WANT! But apparently God does not agree with my wants and is not giving them to me. WHY GOD!? What do you have planned for me? Tell me ... because I am frustrated that my plans are not coming together. Selfish of me, I know. But I am ONLY human and this is my blog ... so I am allowed to vent :o)

But seriously, I need an intervention. All I want for Christmas is a honest to god potential date. Actually scratch that. I feel like the holidays are a TERRIBLE time to begin dating someone. I am not trying to meet family or become all emotional and clingy. So perhaps, after Valentine's day? HAHA

If I only I knew the plans that you have for me oh lord ... if only I knew.