Radiating Positivity

My positive for Wednesday was my student intern. He is such a sweet heart and I am SO looking forward to working with him this year! His enthusiasm is contagious and his innocance is heart-warming. I am excited to teach him all that I know and to help him develop him as a future educator!

My positive for today was that our special education team is working together. We have been sharing resources, offering emotional support and going above and beyond in helping out with various tasks. I am excited to work with this incredible group of women and to learn/grow together.

Here's to continuing to be positive ... every day of this marvelous school year.

Shitty Year vrs Marvelous Year

I've been really sour after work the last two days. There's a lot going on that I am unhappy with, and it is so easy to get hung up on all the negativity.

Then I came across this...

I realized that this will be a shitty year if I continue to focus on the negative. So I am challenging myself to find something to be grateful every day. And I plan to blog about it on here. That - I hope - will make the difference between a shitty year and a marvelous year. 

So today I am grateful for sitting with the fifth grade team and getting to know some of the members a little better. I am also grateful for getting to know one of my sped teammates better.

Relationships are important to me and I am hoping to build positive ones this year.

Here's to a marvelous week! 

Summer has come to an end.

Summer has finally come to an end. And it flew by so fast.

Here's a photo recap .... since I cannot find the words to capture how great this summer has been!

These photos do not even begin to capture all of the fun, laughs and memories had this summer. All I can say is everything happens for a reason ... and I am forever grateful that I had the opportunity to take a summer off. Although I am sad to see summer go, I feel rejuvenated and ready to take on another year of teaching!

This summer break is one for the books!

2AM. Cannot sleep.

You ever get that gut feeling that you're set apart? That you  are on a different path. That no matter how much you want to be like your friends, and fit in ... You will not. Because you were born set apart. 

I've spent the first twenty six years of my life trying to be like everyone else. It's all I've ever wanted. To fit in. To be accepted. But time and time again, I have be unable to. 

I've walked unmarked trails ... Even when I did not want to. Because I have always been on a different path for whatever reason.

There's an old saying that goes, "Why fit in when you were born to stand out?"

And I don't know the right answer to that question. However I cannot seem to shake this unmistakable feeling that my road ahead will be a tad lonely.

Not because I will not have loved ones. But because my loved ones will not be able to love me in the way I need it. Because I will trail down the paths not wandered, while my loved ones travel down the beaten paths.

I feel like where God wants to take me, I must go alone. In order to fulfill his will ... My cross to carry may be heavier than my neighbors.

And for that I weep. It hurts. It's lonely. And no one really understands. 

My only hope is that one day I will learn to accept my fate and be okay with it. Because fighting it ... Is only adding to the struggle and pain.