prayer for today ...

Father God, thank You for Your provision and blessing in my life. I know that You are making a way even when I don’t see a way. Help me to stand strong in You so that I may see the harvest of blessing You have prepared for me in Jesus’ name. Amen.

God is Good

This weekend has been a blessing. Three days to rest and to spend time with old friends. I have been sick with a sinus infection for most of it, but goodness I am so thankful for the blessings in my life. I am grateful for my dear friends, my loving family, and the coworkers I grew to know and love at Watkins Mill. I am grateful for this warm spring weather (in the dead of winter) and for being able to stay physically active. I am grateful for losing approximately four pounds and for delicious food. I am grateful for a God who never leaves me nor forsakes me. I am grateful for my job as a teacher. I am grateful for my students, new and old. I am grateful for meeting new people. I am grateful for good music streaming over pandora.com. I am grateful for the positive memories I have of the past five years of my life. I am grateful for the lessons I have learned for the low points in my life and for the mistakes I have made. I am super thankful for my parents and my siblings. I am grateful for living in my own condo ... it's been almost eight months now. I am thankful for being single, independent, strong, and black. I am thankful for waking up to see another day.

I am thankful and grateful for all of my wonderful blessings. <3 Thank You Lord for a Relaxing weekend that has restored my health and my spirits (even though physically, I have been suffering from a nasty sinus infection and a tooth ache.) God is Good all the Time.

What do you think Teachers do?

week from hell

"When someone can walk out of your life, learn how to let them go. They are not tied to you and you deserve better." ♥


not the best week of my life ... i feel like if it has not been one thing, it's been another. closing the chapter of the american hero for once and for all. 

deep waters

"But understand, when you’re out there in the deep waters, you can’t touch the ground. You can’t see the shoreline, and at times, it can get a little rocky. You may not always see how things are going to work out. But, the scripture tells us that deep calls to deep. In other words, God is the one who has called you to the deep waters. He is with you, and He knows there are deep things on the inside of you. Remember, in deep waters, you are not alone. God is with you, and He’s causing those deep things inside of you to come forth."


- Joel Osteen

Footprints

"You won't realize the distance you've walked until you take a look back at the footprints you have left behind."


It's amazing. I do not know when it happened ... but it did. And I wish I could twirl through the streets shouting, "It's finally over!" Did you hear me ... "IT'S OVER!" Somewhere over the course of the past couple of months ... I let go. I let go and moved on. I am - for the first time EVER - one hundred percent positive that I am finally over him. It took me three extra years ... but by the grace of God, I did it! I am so proud of myself ... of the pain, tears, heartache and fears. I got to the place I dreamt of for so long. The ultimate test was looking at old photographs of us together ... looking at his page ... and I no longer feel anything. No tears, no pain. No regrets, no "if only's." I know that I am done! 


Although I do not like him, and really have no desire to keep in direct contact ... from the bottom of my heart, I do wish him the very best. I hope he finds absolute happiness with his new love. I wish them all the joys of exploring something new ... of growing together with someone. I hope they work out and remain together for a very long time. Most importantly, I hope he does right by her. I hope to goodness he does not treat her the way he treated me. It's unfortunate how things ended between us ... but I will cherish the good times we had together and use the bad times as life lessons ... warnings of what to look out for in the future. 


Thank you God for delivering me from this. I will continue to pray for him. I will continue to pray for myself. I hope one day I find out what it means to love you first ... and man second. I hope one day, a my heart is so lost within you ... that a man will have to seek you first to find me. I hope that one day, I experience a love that goes way beyond what I have ever imagined for myself.

My footprints in the sand show where I came from ... and where I am going ... so thankful for God's grace and time ... combined, they're the healer of all wounds.

[dedicated]

"Somewhere in between all the mind games, lies, and seduction, I fell for you. Somewhere in between all the broken promises, manipulation, and heartaches, I got over you. But I guess I fibbed a few times, too. Remember all those times I swore I needed you? Well consider them lies because, baby, here I am without you and I survived."

- Lil Wayne